Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Thursday, May 22, 2008
books
ZEN AND THE ART OF MAKING A LIVING WAS GIVEN TO ME BY MY NEIGHBOR. SHE GOT IT IN A DOLLAR A BAG BOOK SALE AT THE LIBRAY
I USED MY GIFT CARD TO PURCAHASE THE ARTISTS WAY AND THE SOUND OF PAPER
THE SOUND OF PAPER TITLE APPPEALS TO ME. IT REMINDED ME OF WHAT PADDY SAID ABOUT THE SOUND OF THE BLADE AS IT SLID ACROSS THE CHARCOAL SHE WAS SHARPENING AS PREPARATION TO DRAW.
I AM TAKING STEPS TOWARD SOMETHING....... I'VE NO IDEA WHERE IT WILL LEAD BUT NO MATTER, I AM DOING IT ANYWAY.
WHEN SOMEONE ASKED IF I COULD DO ANYTHING ( IN REFERANCE TO THE PAPEL PICADO ) I SAID YES I CAN DO ANYTHING! HAHAHA. I TOLD A LIBRRAIAN THAT I AM AN ARTIST AND THAT I AM AVAILABLE TO DO MORE THAN THE PACIFIC ISLAND DANCE STUFF FOR THEM. THEN I SHOWED HER THE BLOG! WHEN I WENT DOWNTOWN I WAS TALKING TO SOMEONE AT THE FABRIC SHOP AND TOLD HER I WAS AN ARTIST AND COULD DRAW SOME DESIGNS FOR THE FABRIC FOR THEM. YIKES NOW WHAT DO I DO?!!! SO THE GOAL IS TO STAND NAKED IN FRONT OF THE WORLD AGAIN, AND LAY CLAIM TO THE POSSIBILITIES..........WHO KNOWS WHERE THIS WILL LEAD IF ANYWHERE AT ALL!!!
I USED MY GIFT CARD TO PURCAHASE THE ARTISTS WAY AND THE SOUND OF PAPER
THE SOUND OF PAPER TITLE APPPEALS TO ME. IT REMINDED ME OF WHAT PADDY SAID ABOUT THE SOUND OF THE BLADE AS IT SLID ACROSS THE CHARCOAL SHE WAS SHARPENING AS PREPARATION TO DRAW.
I AM TAKING STEPS TOWARD SOMETHING....... I'VE NO IDEA WHERE IT WILL LEAD BUT NO MATTER, I AM DOING IT ANYWAY.
WHEN SOMEONE ASKED IF I COULD DO ANYTHING ( IN REFERANCE TO THE PAPEL PICADO ) I SAID YES I CAN DO ANYTHING! HAHAHA. I TOLD A LIBRRAIAN THAT I AM AN ARTIST AND THAT I AM AVAILABLE TO DO MORE THAN THE PACIFIC ISLAND DANCE STUFF FOR THEM. THEN I SHOWED HER THE BLOG! WHEN I WENT DOWNTOWN I WAS TALKING TO SOMEONE AT THE FABRIC SHOP AND TOLD HER I WAS AN ARTIST AND COULD DRAW SOME DESIGNS FOR THE FABRIC FOR THEM. YIKES NOW WHAT DO I DO?!!! SO THE GOAL IS TO STAND NAKED IN FRONT OF THE WORLD AGAIN, AND LAY CLAIM TO THE POSSIBILITIES..........WHO KNOWS WHERE THIS WILL LEAD IF ANYWHERE AT ALL!!!
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
On a roll
More good things. Gifts are everywhere...................Today I spent the day with two terrific people. Both Artists. We decided that we would get together on Tuesdays to work on projects that we are interested in such as Illustration, screen printing , lino cuts, drawing, painting, whatever. We just want to make time to do this work. The goal is to encourage eachother, and support one another without having to pay huge prices to go to classes. I think we have enough experience and information to learn from eachother. I came away with great ideas today. I went to boarders and used my gift card that my sister gave me to get a couple of books that will also help me on this journey. The first step is listening and looking for the gifts and being open to them as they come..........................................................These are the paper cuts I talked about in the previous post........the work continues :)
Sunday, May 18, 2008
how you value your work as an artist
How do we see ourselves in the larger scheme of things in the art world? Who defines the value of ones work? what makes it marketable? A simple conversation with a friend. A fallow up to the conversation about the Pasadena Playhouse Latino Heritage event. About her husband: He is willing to set his price and walk away from a job that will not pay his worth. I THINK THAT HE IS RIGHT IN THAT HE SEES HIS VALUE AND HONORS IT, WHICH MAKES HIM BELIEVABLE, RELIABLE, AND MOSTLY MARKETABLE BECAUSE OF IT.------- I AM TRYING TO BELIEVE IN THE ME OF ALL OF IT. IT'S STILL COMING FROM THE OUTSIDE IN RATHER THAN THE INSIDE OUT. I AM TRYING TO GET THERE. A LITTLE CLOSER TODAY. THE FEEDBACK HAS BEEN GOOD. I AM LOOKING FOR THE GIFTS AND THEY ARE ALL AROUND ME. I HAVE BECOME BOGGED DOWN WITH THE STUFF THE MATT HAS BROUGHT OVER THE 13 YEARS OF HIS LIFE IN MINE. AND I AM IN THE PROCESS OF RELEASING SOME OF THAT NOW THAT THINGS ARE BETTER FOR HIM. BETTER FOR HIM MEANS BETTER FOR US AS A FAMILY. I CAN GET SOME CLARITY ABOUT WHAT IT IS WE DO INSTEAD OF MOVING THROUGH IT, JUST BECAUSE WE GET TRAPPED BY WHAT WE THINK IS IMPORTANT. ALWAYS OVERCOMPENSATING FOR MATTS DISABILITY AND THE EFFECT IT HAS ON ME AS MOTHER. His growing up and better health allows me to look at what I am doing a little more objectively rather than in the mode of I have to do this or I have to do that because it's so immediate. As I navigate through the murky waters that are Matt's life in mine, I get better at stearing through and stearing clear of the whirlpools. It is an endless emotional journey though, and I have limited use of guides and their expertise in pushing through. Yet I have learned as I go and I get better and stronger, I have more determination and trust in myself and my convictions. I believe the quality of the work is good. Now comes the packaging and marketing of me. That is the wierd part. I don't know why. I'm always surprised when others respond. ????? I know why I like the work. I don't know anything beyond that :)
Monday, May 12, 2008
I had a blast!!!
This was so much fun. Sure I worked my butt off for four days straght, but it was worth it just to get that feeling back! The event was great, the company was good, and the music was rockin;) .........................More details later..............zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz 11:40 p.m. and all is as it should be......................Anyway getting back to this has only taken a few months or so! This was sort of the kick off of work that seems to keep coming in bits and pieces, in between the constant hula performances. Okay, Roberta called and asked if I would like to participate in an event at the Pasadena Playhouse for the Latin Heritage Foundation. Quetzal was going to be Performing and Andy Garcia was hosting the event. She wanted to know if I would like to do a demo. on Papel Picado and possibly sell my wares. Of course I jumped right in as I do, thinking, sure I can add this to my plate. This is where my mother would say "Your eyes are bigger than your stomach. Where are you going to put that?" Not to worry, I will find some place to put it! And so I did , right in my back pocket with all the other things I'm going to get to eventually... As it turns out Roberta also asked if I could create something for Andy Garcia and Quetzal as a thank you for giving their time to the event, which I was happy do. Until I actually had to come up with something......Ha ha ha. What to do? After all, these guys are pretty well known out there, and what could I possibly do that would be of some value to these people, that I know nothing about? So on Roberta's lead I started poking around and decided to go with the Quetzal Logo for the band. Andy Garcia was a little more complicated. Yes I knew he was Cuban, so what images come to mind, cigars, palm trees Castro......So I read about him and this fellow kept coming up in the stories. A musician By the name of Cachao who happened to be a very well know Cuban Base Player and friend of Andy Garcia, who by the way, helped him relaunch his career here in the United States. Well, Cachao had passed away. Something in me was drawn toward this man and I wondered if I could do an image of Cachao playing the base? And that is what I set out to do. I wanted to give Andy Garcia an image that I hoped would be meaningful to him. Something told me this was the thing I was looking for. But I did not know if I could capture him In a Papel Image. I was however, in my never say die frame of mind. I really wanted to get this down. A personal challenge. So I set to work choosing paper, choosing an image, sketching out an image, and finally "cutting away the scraps of negative space". Wow what a metaphor. The work was done and presented to Mr Garcia the night of the event. I was not there to give it to him . I was out front doing my Demo. thing. Someone tapped me on the shoulder and told me that he really liked the work and that he wanted to come out to talk to me. I was , for a person who prides herself as not being star struck definitely star struck. I found myself tripping over my tongue with nothing intelligent to say to this very handsome, tall, kind hearted man how came over to thank me for this gift. I discovered that it had not been even a year since Cacaho had passed away making this gift more relevant than I imagined. Andy Garcia left such an impression on me. It was the way he spoke and the way he carried himself. He had that calm center. He was genuinely kind. It was such a fun moment for me because Maritza and Daniel were there to see this exchange. I definitely won some cool mom points on this one!
Sunday, May 11, 2008
It feels good to work!
This week I had the opportunity to join Paddy of Light Bringer at James Foshay middle Shool in south central L.A. I had a great time showing my work to the students of Room 13. The main focus was Papel Picado. I was able to share the cuurant work that I am preparing for The Latin Heritage Foundation for an event taking place at the Pasadena Playhouse on May 12th.
These middle school kids were great! They were eager to learn, they were insightful, and asked thoughtful questions. I felt very full when I left them. They were very appreciative and interested in everthing that Paddy and I presented. I so miss that kind of interaction and open discussion about ideas and creativity. So, as soon as I left I got started on this project for the Pasadena Playhouse. I am working away on Papel PIcado. So far I have finished the Logo for Quetzal who will be playing that evening as well as a Piece on Cachao ( World renown Cuban Bass Player). This will go to Andy Garcia who is hosting this event. I am just taking a break here as it is 11:00 p.m. on the 11th and I still have a great deal of work to do! If Ifinish Iwill post the work a.s.a.p. until then........................................................................;)
These middle school kids were great! They were eager to learn, they were insightful, and asked thoughtful questions. I felt very full when I left them. They were very appreciative and interested in everthing that Paddy and I presented. I so miss that kind of interaction and open discussion about ideas and creativity. So, as soon as I left I got started on this project for the Pasadena Playhouse. I am working away on Papel PIcado. So far I have finished the Logo for Quetzal who will be playing that evening as well as a Piece on Cachao ( World renown Cuban Bass Player). This will go to Andy Garcia who is hosting this event. I am just taking a break here as it is 11:00 p.m. on the 11th and I still have a great deal of work to do! If Ifinish Iwill post the work a.s.a.p. until then........................................................................;)